OK...so I just got done with a period. I have taken the ovulation meds for this cycle and I am getting ready to start ovulation testing. I bought a kit online that has twenty strips which will be nice since I am a pretty irregular gal and need to test longer than 7 days sometimes. I think....who the heck knows what it will be.
So now I am gearing up to get disappointed....or to get excited. Depends on what day you catch me. Sometimes I am convinced that it will all go well, we will get pregnant and that will be that. And then other times I am reminding myself that it was not that easy the first time so how could it be that easy the second time? I see others get pregnant a second, and sometimes third, time without the difficulties of the first one. But we have been doing nothing to prevent a pregnancy for almost two years now...how could it be easy when it has not happened yet? But then again I have to remember that we did not think that we could even get pregnant the first time.
It is such a crazy time in my head these days. I try not to focus on it. That is honestly easier this time around since I have a two year old running around. I am grateful for her in my life for many reasons. The distraction is one. As weird as it may sound I am grateful for her because I am adamant that I won't miss her life wanting to create a sibling so I will make that much more effort to not become obsessed with the whole conception thing. I hope I can do that.
More to come as the lines do or don't appear this month!
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